I know I won't get time later, so..

My Life in 2009-

January 1: I start a relationship with Jack, a close friend over the winter holiday. We keep in touch via instant message for the rest of the break. Once we get back to school, we manage to see each other very frequently, as our rooms are only a building apart in the dorms. Aside from the relationship, though, the semester starts and I meet my fellow cast members for the springtime production. I am nervous, as this is my first college play and the others all seem to worldly and experience to my eyes.

February: I participate in the sorority's rush week, but do not get accepted. Jack's and my first month "anniversary" goes by, but on February 10, Jack and I break up. I was devastated, not least because I had already bought him things for Valentine's Day. This was my first actual relationship - I do not count ones that lasted all of three days - ie Bradley, my first kiss in high school, or Jeff, my first kiss in college. In late February, I enjoy my first time on a television set, as I work as an extra on the show Numb3rs. I decide that when I can, working as an extra would be nice. (The episode you can play "Spot Samantha" in is "Animal Rites".)

From this point up until Spring break or so, I focus on my schoolwork. I am so embarassed from my experiences with Jack. I avoid him for months. My friendships aren't going as well as they could be, either. This is evidenced when my three "closest" friends all hung out together in spring break and did not invite me to anything. However, I do get closer to some of the cast of the production, which is better in the long run, I suppose. A few of us go to Disneyland during spring break, and hang out when we have to paint the set for the show.

April: My other classes fall by the wayside (not evidenced in my work, just in my attention span towards them) as the production draws closer and closer. We have tech week, and I now know my castmates quite well and am comfortable being myself around them. This is quite a feat for me. We have the production ("Once in a Lifetime") in late April, and it is amazing. There are a few flubs in the lines here and there, but we know each other well enough to work past them so the audience does not see the awkwardness of the moments. My parents come see the show, as does my uncle and four of my friends. Only two stay after the show (Nick and Ross). Jess and Liz go and do laundry before they see me after the show.

May: Aside from the end of the spring semester, nothing really remarkable happens here. I get to go home for the summer, and not see my castmates until fall. Fortunately, my nerd friends are online all the time, so I can talk to them. May is a time of relaxation, as my summer school classes won't begin until late June. Ahh, this is the life. ;) One major thing that happened in May is that I get my closure from Jack. It is the first time since we broke up that I am able to look him in the face and talk to him.

June: I go to Disneyland a LOT in this month. I get my Annual Pass in the first week of the month, and go quite a bit before my pass becomes blacked out in July and half of August. In one week, I go on a Tuesday with one bunch of friends, a Thursday/Friday grad nite trip with another friend, and that following Monday with one of my friends from the Tuesday trip, and some of her other friends. Summer school starts. I decide to drop one of my classes, so I won't be there from 10 am to 10 pm. Instead, I'm only there from 10 am to 5 or 6 pm. Makes all the difference, doesn't it? I take Cultural Anthropology, Sociology 1, and Developmental Psychology. The first class is all right (except the video we watch when a giraffe is brutally murdered.. gag!), but I LOVE the last two classes.

July: My family from Arizona decides to pay us a visit. I am partway through classes at this point, but decide to drop Anthro when it starts kicking my butt big time. And I mean, when I get cranky and start hyperventilating the night before a test, since we have gone over NONE of the things involved. I also set up an appointment with Brigitte, a family friend who owns a voice acting studio. I am nervous as heck, but manage to go in and quirk my voice enough to pay my respects to various video game stereotypes. Fourth of July rolls around, and Mom and I take Gary to see our fireworks show at the CBS studios. My classes end for the summer, as session two ends while I'm in college. I also get my wisdom teeth taken out - ouch!! Somewhere in here, I manage to make a few visits to my friend Nick, who is working at the school for the summer.

August: I am knitting quite a bit. I finish my first real bag - it is wool, and I felt it because it is far too large. It is pink and black and one of my proudest knitting achievements. I manage to figure out a faster way to purl faster when I start a beautifully long afghan. I manage to finish most of the afghan within a few weeks, but run out of yarn near the end so it is put on indefinite hold. In the week before school, I take a vacation to San Diego and Las Vegas. I enjoy the sun in San Diego with such activities as sea-dooing and kayaking, and enjoy the nightlife in Vegas as much as I can, as I am still only eighteen and cannot legally do most of the fun stuff in the city. However, I do see a nice performance of Phantom. The next night, however, I get sick for most of the night, the car ride home that day, and a few days afterward. I do not even pack my own things to go back to school - I am feeling so ill, my mother does it for me. I do feel better once the first week of school starts - coincidentally, also two days before my birthday.

On August 26, I throw a small party on my 19th birthday - my dad and uncle show up, as do my friends Caitlin, Nick, Jess, Liz, and Ernest. Liz invites her roommate Zoe without telling me, but there is more than enough pizza to go around. I end up eating it for about a week and a half straight, and still throwing away about half a pizza. At the party, we sat around and talked for quite a while, then decided that playing some games would be fun. We head over to the library (after a false start) and lose Liz and Zoe, but the rest of us play the Game of Life for about an hour or so. It is very fun.

September: This is a month of social drama. I hang out with Liz, Jess, and Nick almost constantly, and almost always feel awkward. We had almost none of the same interests - they play video games, I read. They watch anime, I watch chick flicks. Their nerd interest is computers and electronics, mine is drama and books. I am really close to Nick, though, and get closer to Jess as time goes on, so do not much mind Liz's company - even when she seems to mind mine. It seems to me that tension spirals higher and higher before one day, I am cast out of the room like an unruly child. It is here that I snap, and decide to cut my involvement with this group. I decide that I need a group of friends that I have common interests with, and that will respect me as I am and not put me down for trying to be me. This is how I viewed the other group. Whether or not they were actually like this is anyone's guess. It is also in September that Nick and Jess start to go out. In this month, I went to the D23 Expo in Anaheim, as I am a huge Disney nut. This is definitely one of the highlights of 2009.

October: With my goal of good friends in mind, I invite a bunch of high school and production people to go to Disneyland with me the first weekend of October. Two are available and get back to me: my friend Lauren, who I have gone to Disneyland with previously - she was the grad nite friend, and my friend Ernest, who I was in the production with, and spoke to on Facebook over the summer quite a bit. We go, and have a blast. The next day, Lauren is picked up by her mother, but as I am the ride back up to school, Ernest is dragged to the Long Beach Aquarium with me and my parents. Many pictures are taken, and an injury is had to his hand. In place of ice, two cold cans of soda are placed on his injury. The next week, he holds my hand on the way from our mutual class to my class immediately following. On October 18, we start a relationship. For Lauren's birthday and for Halloween plans, the three of us go back to Disneyland on the 30th. It's not too crowded, and we do things that we didn't do on the previous trip. Lauren and I go on the Halloween-ized version of Space Mountain. I do not like this at all - bloody skeleton corpses coming at me? Not my deal. We go on the "Nightmare Before Christmas" Haunted Mansion ride. I still prefer the original, but scream anyway when prompted in the Elevator Room. We watch the Halloween fireworks in front of the castle and pray that the CD comes out soon. For Halloween, I doll myself up (haha) as Dolly Parton - fake breasts and everything. Ernest doesn't have a costume, so improvises with his towel. He says he's a hitch hiker. Lauren dresses as a flapper. We make quite a sight - first going through my neighborhood for candy, then through Lauren's grandmother's neighborhood (where we get much more candy), then finally to visit my uncles before heading home. Lauren is picked up and Ernest and I proceed to play my old video games for a few hours.

November: A lot of furlough days happened here, so it feels like not a lot happened. I had essentially two weeks off classes - one because of furloughs, the other because of taking of the whole of the Thanksgiving week. I spent some of this time catching up with friends that I hadn't seen in quite some time - Chase, a friend from my last high school, Ra'idah, my bff from middle school, and Bryan, my bff from my first elementary school. In my spare time and during the break, I work on papers due for the end of the semester. In the rest of the time, I see Ernest around campus. Our month "anniversary" rolls around. :) I also pick my groups for performing in my musical theater and world drama and theatre. I know at least one person in all three groups - Albert is in my multicultural lit and creative writing classes as well as world drama, and I chose two groups for the other class because I knew the majority of the class from the production and my friends needed another person. I participate in Black Friday this year, and do NOT regret it.

December: I bring Ernest to explore Hollywood for a day, and to see a play. We have rehearsals and such for finishing up the semester - I get to watch a good friend (who played my love interest in the play) strangle my boyfriend. I always make sure to give Ernest a hug after he was "killed" for his scene. On the tenth, I'm done with classes and pack up to come home until the 16th of January. During winter break, Ernest and I text a lot, which is nice, but not as nice as seeing one another in person. Our two month "anniversary" goes by. I also sign with Booked Talent, an extras agency. I hope to get some jobs before going back to school. I finish up my Christmas shopping, and enjoy knowing that my chosen people will LOVE their presents - I got Mom a Julia Child cookbook, a mug from the Disney Store, a meditation day-by-day calendar, a small book with jokes by George Carlin, and several magazines for crocheters. I got Aunt Kathy the same Julia Child cookbook, a purse, the DVD of "Julie and Julia", and Mom included some of her crocheted scarves.

Now, it is almost the end of 2009 - only 23 more hours left, now that I'm almost done with this blog entry. This afternoon, we will be heading upstate so I can bring in the New Year with Ernest and spend some time away from Los Angeles, as we would not bring it in very spectacularily down here. The next I talk to you blog people, we'll be in 2010.

I can't wait.

Happy New Year!!

Twas the week of Christmas...

And I couldn't be more excited! I love Christmas- all the hustle and bustle to get the holiday right, the mini-and-silent competition among my relatives to see who gets who the best gift.. The lights and decorations and music always put me in a good mood.

Once I'm in this holiday good mood, it's very hard to get me out of it. For instance, right now I'm sitting at a Starbucks, getting some caffeine in before I go home and wrap presents to go to Arizona tomorrow. And make fudge. But anyway, I just waited at least seven minutes (according to my iPod) for a parking spot. There was a lot going on in the aisle I was in. But in normal times, I would probably get a little mad at the dumbasses impatiently honking behind me, or the people taking forever to get out of the spot. Not today! :)

By the way- Friday was two months. :)

The sock heel I turned last post was that of a Christmas stocking. I was as thrilled as anything that it actually worked like the book said it would. And yes, I did finish the SOB that night. Lol!!

Okay, well, I'm gonna go inside the Barnes and Noble now and finish up some Christmas shopping.

If I remember later, I'll give my review of Mary Poppins the Musical. <3

We interrupt your blog reading with this news bulletin.

HOLY SHIT I JUST TURNED MY FIRST HEEL ON A SOCK!

HOLY SHIT!!!!

OK BYE GONNA FINISH THIS SOB!

XOXO

Hey all!

I'm home for the holidays.


^^^ you have no idea how long I've been waiting to spontaneously say that.

Anywho, I'm at home. I miss my friends at school, but I enjoy not having any homework. I do miss my boyfriend, of course. I wish he didn't live like three hours away from here.

I'm also the only healthy person in the house. Hence why I'm blogging now instead of watching TV or something with my parents. I'd like to keep my health, thank-you-very-much! Especially with Christmas next week!

Speaking of Christmas.. all my shopping's done! Hooray! Then again, I didn't have to buy for very many people. A friend of mine got the spare ticket to a play we saw last Saturday (Extinction, starring James Roday [from "Psych"] and Michael Weston... OMG sooo amazing! The whole Psych crew was there! Well, except the Chief and Lassie, but otherwise....), my boyfriend got various knick knacks I found that I thought he'd like, along with a scarf I knitted for him (the yarn was 80% baby alpaca and 20% silk... *dies*). Most of my family will get the various knitted things I've made over the past year. My family (on two sides.. I don't know about the third) has come up with a tradition that we pull names from a hat, and we only get that person a gift. It really helps, especially because you don't have to think about everyone, just the little kids and whoever you got. This year, I have my aunt Kathy and my mom. (Kathy is on one side of the family, my mom is from the other drawing). I shan't be posting what I got them here just yet, just in case, but I am jealous of them. They're going to LOVE their gifts. :)

I can't believe it's been a year since I started knitting. It has really calmed me down, and although it can get pricy to buy the top-notch yarn that I like, it is sooo worth it. Not to mention, for birthdays and such, presents are a snap!

So. My plans for the holidays. Well, I hope to do a trip maybe up the coast for fun, later on. My main goal is getting more background acting work, because that was a lot of fun when I did it last February. (Yeah, I did a two-day stint on Numb3rs. I was an FBI agent, a student, and a flash mob member. See if you can spot me in the episode of Season 5, "Animal Rites". I'm there. You'll see. XD ) Not to mention I thought it paid well for not that much work. The only thing is, it's very hard to get work independently - and by that, I mean if you're signed with Central Casting, and you only call their hotline like fifteen times a day. You need help. I was fully planning on signing with an extras agency this week, but woke up too late on all three days of registration. So that's put of until next week, unfortunately.

Facebook has changed its format YET AGAIN. *sigh* I don't really mind so much when I get used to it, but it's pretty disconcerting when you don't know where things are, all of a sudden.

Tomorrow is going to be fun, despite the chores my parents have set up for me. I plan on getting up earlier than I have been and racing through those, so I can go up to Valencia to pick up my aunt. Before that, however, I am fully planning on going to one of those pottery painting places, because I have a gift card there that's been burning a hole in my wallet! I really want to go! So after that, I'll pick up Aunt Janey and we'll come down to my area.. and we'll go and see Mary Poppins, the Musical in downtown. I'M SO EXCITED! We seem to have really good seats, and I want to see if it's as good as everyone says it is. <3

I suppose that's it for the time being. Please ignore the last post.. Or, actually, don't. Just accept it as a fragmented thought, as I was extremely multi-tasking at the time. ;)

By the way - is anyone actually out there? Or am I talking to myself still....? Let me know, random blog-people. :)

xoxo-

Just a disclaimer-

I'm not going to make much sense this post. It probably won't be helped because i'm rehearsing with my My Fair Lady group for my musical theatre final as I type.

I know that I made the conscious decision to stop my association with my friends. I knew I would be lonely. I did not think it would be so hard to see them again.

Let me clarify. I miss them. I do not miss the drama associated with them, or those who did not like me. But... I was really close with one or two of the group. And I do miss our conversations and such. I saw the ones I was close with today and I didn't anticipate the sudden heartache and nostalgia.

Don't get me wrong. I probably wouldn't change my decision from two months ago, because I don't know if Ernest and I would be together if that hadn't happened.

I honestly have no clue where I'm going with this. Until I do, I'll end it here.